About the title

A title like "Pageantry of Me" conjurs up images of someone completely in love with themselves, someone who can't get enough of their innervoice telling them how great they are and how they are always right. Far from it. I am a fuck up. Always have been, always will be. Time after time I spend more money than I make, hurt myself in unbelievable ways, and find myself on my back (figuratively and literally) looking up at a friend who's shaking his or her head in disbelief. This is when I get up, brush myself off and shrug "It's just the pageantry of me."